Day 5

Today is the fifth day after accident. I still got nothing to do, but laying down on bed. watching dvd, tv, calling friends, checking up twitter, facebook, eat some cakes, or drink a water. all done from bed. so, you might imagine what’s beside my bed. a drawer with everything inside.

some friends asking me ‘how’s your leg?’. I couldn’t tell you how far improvement has made. because since I couldn’t see anything on my leg, everything was still the same, except the part when I could feel my leg hurt inside, like the vain is reacting to something, which me and my brother pretend as the ‘growing bone’.

then, how do I feel now? well this might sounds corny. but I still feel sad somehow. especially everytime I think of asking someone to help me to do this and that, even a very easy thing, like taking a cloth from the lower drawer. my bad.

in time, I guess it’s time to change my mind into a positive way. by the time I couldn’t go anywhere, I might have a chance to do lots of thing that I couldn’t do before. let’s make a list.

• watching DVD.
• search for any information, for, scholarship (maybe?)
• look for what’s happening around the world
• learn how to make cookies
• write more (inspiring) articles. ?
• spend more time with mom and dad
• reflect on how my life had gone so far, and what’s next
• anyone needs stalking service? I might do one for you.

is that all?

at least, if I couldn’t do a thing outside the home, I can do many things from bed. so I wouldn’t waste too much time crying or regretting for what has happened.

life is short. if it isn’t now, then when?